can anyone tell me....

where i should go with this one. it seems to have hit a plateau, and its not changing. its not declining, which is an amazing thing, but its not getting any better. and i don't know what else i can do, i don't know what is left to do in my power, in my place to show anything. i cant do more, i really cant. I'm bound, and tied by respect, and the knowing of the right thing to do. do i wish there was more i could do, every damn second of the day. i pray every night for guidance, and for them. i guess i just wait. wait. and wait some more. some day, ill get what i deserve, wont i?