MY DAYS ARENT AS BRIGHT ANYMORE....

why can things never go right? ever. 8 months ago i was suppose to be home. im not suppose to be here anymore. but i am. life is just kicking my ass recently. i cant catch a brake to save my life. there are very few things in this world these days that i want, and i cant have any of them. i do the best i can by trying to keep my head up, chin up, chest out, and try to drive on. but its getting harder. and i cant let anyone help me with it, cause they dont know what its like. also, other aspects of my life are pretty ascue as well. those cannot and will not be fixed for a long long time. but that is the ultimate goal in my life. make it there. get what i want. get what i need. and live life happily ever after. being alone is the hardest part. when im in cb, things are different. i dont think about the things i do here cause i simply dont have the time. i spend my time with family, and friends. and they keep me away from those places i dont need to go, and they do well at it. i just want to be home. for good. this wekend stuff is nt good enough anymore. pretty much all i have tonight. bottom line, being alone sucks. DO NOT CORRECT MY SPELLING OR TYPING, IM TYPING FAST, AND I KNOW I LEAVE SOME THINGS OUT. I DONT CARE. SO DONT CORRECT ME.